Bipolar Disorder

October 10, 2016

I feel dirty.

I feel like I have “it” now…what is it even?

I thought I knew.

I thought I understood.

I thought this confirmation of the unspoken susceptibility, already predetermined by my heredity would be a good thing…right?

Because I always kinda sorta knew, something wasn’t right.

I always figured I was gifted, special…but not under this spotlight.

I feel dirty.